To My Dear One,
We fight and we argue because her ghost still lingers. And like a banshee, it plays with our minds until we have no idea what to do with ourselves. And it's my fault. Men these days aren't men. They aren't the same men who built Rome or who won the West or destroyed Hitler. We are boys who have been aloud to increase in size. I'm trying to mature. I'm trying to be the Ghostbuster who sends her back to Hell where she belongs. I do believe part of that will be done by us being together again. Just be patient. I know it hurts. It hurts me knowing it hurts you. But I love you, and I'm going to vanquish this enemy, as I should have had back when she appeared. I'm going to bring us peace and a happily ever after. Because you are my princess. My view of perfection and the girl who I would beat the entire world just to be with. I have never felt this way about a woman in my life. You have been better then anything I can imagine. Your body is the perfect formation of a womanhood, with both beauty and elegance that drives me mad. You're character is an amazing mix of every awesome emotion at the right time. You're hard working to achieve anything you put your mind to. Yet I could spend years with you and still enjoy your company as though it was our first day of meeting. And you are strong, despite what you think. You care for those around you and for me with all of your heart, you give it up for other people instead of keeping it all to yourself. That is why you are so amazing. There is nobody above you, and your seconds are so far behind, you are about to lap them. Don't fret over some stupid thing, we have bigger things to move onto. Those bigger things are where we move ahead and vanquish all of the demons. I'll do what I can to keep my insecurities out of the way. I love you more than anything that could exist in the entire universe and all things that my brain can't imagine yet.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
PS I'll probably edit this some more ;)
Wednesday, December 29, 2010
Friday, December 24, 2010
12.24.2010
To My Dear One,
I haven't been myself this season. I don't want the joy and the laughter. I don't want snow or lights or cookies. I don't even want presents at this point. I just want you. No friends and family. Just you. I can't enjoy the music like I normally do. Most of it sings about two individuals being separated over Christmas. They make me sad and miss you and just wish we could hit fast forward to when we rise out of this hole and have a happy, stable life. And we are coming out of this hole. I know it. But for now I just have to keep my sadness to myself and try to find the words to explain how intangible my yearning for you has become. I love you and I am still excited about your gifts. They're things that I picked on my own for the love of my life. Things that when I saw, I thought of you. I'll tell you what you're getting tomorrow morning. It's still a Christmas gift, so you still can't know until Christmas. And one line that I've found comfort in is "I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams." I dream of our home. Our life when we have money and our own place and everything is just wonderful. And I won't feel at home unless you're around. That's why I want to see you when I wake up tomorrow, first thing in the morning. That way I can feel a little at home, at least for the time in which I'm looking at your beauty and telling myself that I will sacrifice anything to make this girl happy. I love you and I can no longer go a Christmas without you being with me.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
I haven't been myself this season. I don't want the joy and the laughter. I don't want snow or lights or cookies. I don't even want presents at this point. I just want you. No friends and family. Just you. I can't enjoy the music like I normally do. Most of it sings about two individuals being separated over Christmas. They make me sad and miss you and just wish we could hit fast forward to when we rise out of this hole and have a happy, stable life. And we are coming out of this hole. I know it. But for now I just have to keep my sadness to myself and try to find the words to explain how intangible my yearning for you has become. I love you and I am still excited about your gifts. They're things that I picked on my own for the love of my life. Things that when I saw, I thought of you. I'll tell you what you're getting tomorrow morning. It's still a Christmas gift, so you still can't know until Christmas. And one line that I've found comfort in is "I'll be home for Christmas, if only in my dreams." I dream of our home. Our life when we have money and our own place and everything is just wonderful. And I won't feel at home unless you're around. That's why I want to see you when I wake up tomorrow, first thing in the morning. That way I can feel a little at home, at least for the time in which I'm looking at your beauty and telling myself that I will sacrifice anything to make this girl happy. I love you and I can no longer go a Christmas without you being with me.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
Monday, December 20, 2010
To My Dear One,
I know the stress lays hits like the wind eroding away at a mountain. At first it doesn't seem so much. But after a while, the effect of the wind becomes greater and the mountain falls apart. We must remember that we are not mountains, we are lovers. We will come out of this as two better individuals, and more importantly one strong couple. I want to help you know matter what. Don't make me one of your stresses. I know this is hard. But that's the way I think. You are everything, I just want to give you everything, and most importantly happiness. Maybe I'll still grab tickets for Christmas. Don't be scared, my wonderful girl. Through your trials you have become strong. And we are becoming stronger by the day. And remember I am always here if you ever need me, just give me a call. I'll be your light in the sky to remind you where you are going. Where we are going. Together and happy.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
I know the stress lays hits like the wind eroding away at a mountain. At first it doesn't seem so much. But after a while, the effect of the wind becomes greater and the mountain falls apart. We must remember that we are not mountains, we are lovers. We will come out of this as two better individuals, and more importantly one strong couple. I want to help you know matter what. Don't make me one of your stresses. I know this is hard. But that's the way I think. You are everything, I just want to give you everything, and most importantly happiness. Maybe I'll still grab tickets for Christmas. Don't be scared, my wonderful girl. Through your trials you have become strong. And we are becoming stronger by the day. And remember I am always here if you ever need me, just give me a call. I'll be your light in the sky to remind you where you are going. Where we are going. Together and happy.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
Friday, December 17, 2010
12.17.2010
To My Dear One,
Here I am in a house that is no longer mine. A place that has memories, but has lost it's meaning none the less. I am no longer comfortable here. This is not my home. And most importantly, you're not here either. We will not move into this place. We will move away from this structure, this town, this area. We will make our own home that will be greater than any home that I've ever known. And we will be eternally happy in it. But for now I lay down on a futon in the middle of a clutterred room, wishing it was 4 months from now when we will no longer be apart. I'll just sip my beer and let me eyelids fall as I brush the week off. One day we will not have leave each other. One day we will be eternally happy, and we will see the value in our current situation.
Yours Truly,
Those Jolly Lions
Here I am in a house that is no longer mine. A place that has memories, but has lost it's meaning none the less. I am no longer comfortable here. This is not my home. And most importantly, you're not here either. We will not move into this place. We will move away from this structure, this town, this area. We will make our own home that will be greater than any home that I've ever known. And we will be eternally happy in it. But for now I lay down on a futon in the middle of a clutterred room, wishing it was 4 months from now when we will no longer be apart. I'll just sip my beer and let me eyelids fall as I brush the week off. One day we will not have leave each other. One day we will be eternally happy, and we will see the value in our current situation.
Yours Truly,
Those Jolly Lions
Thursday, December 16, 2010
12.16.2010
To My Dear One,
Being positive is how we make it through this. Remember your bedroom, with the off yellow that the sun bounced around and all the art that makes you feel at home up on the wall. We'll be back in that time when we laid around that room, only this time we'll have nowhere else to go.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
Being positive is how we make it through this. Remember your bedroom, with the off yellow that the sun bounced around and all the art that makes you feel at home up on the wall. We'll be back in that time when we laid around that room, only this time we'll have nowhere else to go.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
Wednesday, December 15, 2010
To My Dear One,
Today was long and tough. I finally had music to open the mail to, but it all reminded me of you. reminded me of our trips among the red clay and among the pine blanketed forest. And then at the parties, I was asked where you were by people who I haven't seen in so long they had forgotten where you were. "When is she coming back?" they would ask. I had to explain to them about April. About how there is no real future set right now. All we know is that we will be together in some shape or form. ANd then we will no longer have issues. Just solvable problems that we work together to overcome. And we will be the wonderful team who outlasts the rest and rules the world. And everything will be good.
Yours Truly,
Those Jolly Lions
Today was long and tough. I finally had music to open the mail to, but it all reminded me of you. reminded me of our trips among the red clay and among the pine blanketed forest. And then at the parties, I was asked where you were by people who I haven't seen in so long they had forgotten where you were. "When is she coming back?" they would ask. I had to explain to them about April. About how there is no real future set right now. All we know is that we will be together in some shape or form. ANd then we will no longer have issues. Just solvable problems that we work together to overcome. And we will be the wonderful team who outlasts the rest and rules the world. And everything will be good.
Yours Truly,
Those Jolly Lions
Tuesday, December 14, 2010
12.14.2010
My Dear One,
This morning I put a picture of us up by my computer at work. My supervisor called you cute. I told her that I knew you were. Because you are the cutest girl in the world. And now that I have your smiling face to help me through my day, everything seems a little bit easier. And with every moment that goes by, we are one more moment closer to each other. Yet I still ache and pain over the fact that you are not here and I am not there. But soon my love, extremely soon, we will be together and inseparable. And even when the day comes that one of our physical shells expire into what is known as death, our spirits will still be one for the rest of eternity, doing whatever our spirits do when we leave this plane of existence. And though we are separated for a short number of weeks at a time, it is minuscule to the unlimited amount of time our love has creator for us to be united, as one, and happy.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
This morning I put a picture of us up by my computer at work. My supervisor called you cute. I told her that I knew you were. Because you are the cutest girl in the world. And now that I have your smiling face to help me through my day, everything seems a little bit easier. And with every moment that goes by, we are one more moment closer to each other. Yet I still ache and pain over the fact that you are not here and I am not there. But soon my love, extremely soon, we will be together and inseparable. And even when the day comes that one of our physical shells expire into what is known as death, our spirits will still be one for the rest of eternity, doing whatever our spirits do when we leave this plane of existence. And though we are separated for a short number of weeks at a time, it is minuscule to the unlimited amount of time our love has creator for us to be united, as one, and happy.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
Monday, December 13, 2010
12.13.2010
I know you already saw this. But I have it stuck in my head, and it makes me think of you and miss you like crazy. I think you like it too, so I don't feel so bad putting it up. It's The Ghost of a Saber Tooth Tiger "Schroedinger's Cat"
12.13.2010
My Dear One,
We are too far apart. With a thousand miles in between us, we stretch our arms as far as they can reach and we cannot cross the distance. And I feel as though I have failed to let you know just how much you mean to me, just how much I miss you, just how much I wish I could kiss you every second of everyday. I'm tired of feeling as though I am not taking action. I'm tired of feeling as though I'm not doing my best to show you my infinite love. So I created this for me to write to you everyday, and you can come on whenever you like and find out what I am thinking. And if the world wants to read it, then so be it. They will only be in awe when the see how wonderful our love truly is.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
We are too far apart. With a thousand miles in between us, we stretch our arms as far as they can reach and we cannot cross the distance. And I feel as though I have failed to let you know just how much you mean to me, just how much I miss you, just how much I wish I could kiss you every second of everyday. I'm tired of feeling as though I am not taking action. I'm tired of feeling as though I'm not doing my best to show you my infinite love. So I created this for me to write to you everyday, and you can come on whenever you like and find out what I am thinking. And if the world wants to read it, then so be it. They will only be in awe when the see how wonderful our love truly is.
Truly Yours,
Those Jolly Lions
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